When telling someone how I feel. Yes. How do you gain strength to tell someone how you feel? Lets say la kalau kita suka ada orang tu kan, pastu kita nak explain kat dia apa kita rasa all this while kan, macam mana ah? Serious do, macam mana? I don't think I can look into someone's eyes bila nak bagitahu something. Kalau nak bagitahu pun, I prefer tunduk. Yea, voice projection will not be clear and the person may not understand what I'm trying to say, but entah, its just, I'm scared of terus terang. And malu. That's why I prefer being silent and think. But maybe after telling everything, I'll look into the person's eyes. Maybe. Well. I have to. Hm, macam mana nak bagitahu Akmal everything nanti, then walk away. Macam mana? And yes. I'm the kind of person who look into someone's eyes when he/she is telling me something. No matter how bad or good it may be, I'll always look into the person's eyes, when he/she wants to tell me something.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
Really angry? Oh, last Wednesday I guess. Sebab Thaqifah tak pergi class. I love her, she' s my friend. Of course la marah kalau dia tak pergi class T__T I'm afraid that she'll regret because of something that she shouldn't do. But now, I'm cool. And I hope she realizes that. Fuh.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
My Ma. Seriously, Ma. She's my Ma. She's the one who raises me up, until now. She's the one who gave birth. She's my best friend. And the reason for me to stay strong. I'll tell her that I love her, and I'll apologize for everything that I've done. And to thank her, for every single thing. And I want her to be beside my Pa. So that I can talk to my Pa without making another phone call. And I'll tell him the same thing. My parents are my hero. I love them, no matter what.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
Well, most probably, no. I dislike to tell things that should be confidential. I'll tell my family la for sure. I'll apologize to everyone for everything that I've done, pay my debts and do good things, that make me happy, for one month. I'll beribadah to Allah, ask for His forgiveness for every sin. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. Too many mistakes. And as a servant, I have to return to the Creator, one day. And yes, I'll be afraid and now, I'm afraid T_T
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust. I've experienced having love without trust. And I've experienced having trust without love. Love without trust, well, you can lose the love that you have. And yea, memang la kalau dah ada love tu, ada la trust. But kalau trust tu dah hilang, love tu boleh stay? Kalau trust, boleh je ada love, one day. Hah. Ceh. Hahahaha. But yea, I prefer trust. Tak semua orang adore/sayang kita. But kalau dah ada trust, senang je kerja, or apa apa.
Another 20? Later.