Hi. This is nothing. I'm just going to say what's on my mind today. Well, what's on my mind right now, perhaps.
To you, you, you, you, you, you, and oh you, yeah you, you blablabla you,
Thanks for listening what I've told you that night, ha, thanks. Well, it's hard for you to understand since you're not me and I'm not you. I know that. But, we're what we are now, for almost one year I guess. I know I'm not good in giving explanations, in telling people what I'm thinking. I rarely talk to people about what I feel and what things are supposed to be. People, including you. You know me well, don't you? You said so. Please, understand. Please. That's all I ask for. Please.
And sorry, I know you've tried, but I can't feel any better. I feel bad.
I'm not asking for more. I just wish there is someone that can listen, understand and listen and understand. Without asking why. Just listen and understand, not pretend to.
You know I'm good in acting like I'm okay, kan? You know I'm good in making a fake smile, kan?
And you guys,
I'm sorry if I've ever made you guys think that I'm different, rude, or whatever you might say. I'm not forgetting you guys and I'm not being kerek or what. It's just, I give up. I give up in waiting for things that won't happen. I give up in waiting for old times to come back. And I just feel that there's no worth talking to people that forget that I'm exist and still alive. I'm tired of being someone that you'll turn to only when you feel bored or when you have problems with people that I know. I'm tired of being neglected. I'm tired of being invisible. I'm tired of making to-do-with-you-guys-list and the neither in the list come true. I just feel, um, useless.
I keep everything to myself. I've tried to talk to you guys, but things don't always work as planned. Instead of getting hurt seeing what I'm seeing now, I think it's better to make myself feel comfortable and be independent. And, I'll just keep quiet. Okay.
I really have to start posting about happy things/thoughts I think. Kthxbai.
