.

I miss you. Really.

)': 

Hi. I'm on my holiday.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

Aiya :S I'm a Muslim, I can't touch a dog when it is wet. I'm gonna seek for others' help I guess, then off to work. Can ah?

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

Neither, actually. But since this is a deep question, I have to think deeply I guess. I think I would rather be hurt by the one I love the most. It hurts, but its better than getting hurt by the one you trust the most, right? Well, what is love without trust, again? I forgive people easily, but I admit that its kinda hard for me to forget. It hurts me most when the person I trust hurt me. I feel cheated. I feel helpless. The person that I trust is the person that I'll turn to when having a bad time, difficulties, problems and whatnot. But if that person hurts me, well, uh. Yea. Um.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?

I don't know hahahahahahaha. Hi Saiful hiiiii hahahaha well Saiful isn't my best friend, but, hahahahaha taktahu hi Saiful hi, hahahaha. I'll keep quiet I guess. Awkward. Wuu. I never experienced this before. How should I know? :S

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

Arwah Ayah Lim. Yes, I would like to if I have that chance. I don't know why. I just want to.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?

Yes? :3 Hahahaha I don't know. Yes, sometimes. I laugh at myself most of the times. I'm so funny haha lol k diam. And I'm nice (:O

Deep questions, they say.

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
When telling someone how I feel. Yes. How do you gain strength to tell someone how you feel? Lets say la kalau kita suka ada orang tu kan, pastu kita nak explain kat dia apa kita rasa all this while kan, macam mana ah? Serious do, macam mana? I don't think I can look into someone's eyes bila nak bagitahu something. Kalau nak bagitahu pun, I prefer tunduk. Yea, voice projection will not be clear and the person may not understand what I'm trying to say, but entah, its just, I'm scared of terus terang. And malu. That's why I prefer being silent and think. But maybe after telling everything, I'll look into the person's eyes. Maybe. Well. I have to. Hm, macam mana nak bagitahu Akmal everything nanti, then walk away. Macam mana? And yes. I'm the kind of person who look into someone's eyes when he/she is telling me something. No matter how bad or good it may be, I'll always look into the person's eyes, when he/she wants to tell me something.


2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
Really angry? Oh, last Wednesday I guess. Sebab Thaqifah tak pergi class. I love her, she' s my friend. Of course la marah kalau dia tak pergi class T__T I'm afraid that she'll regret because of something that she shouldn't do. But now, I'm cool. And I hope she realizes that. Fuh. 


3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
My Ma. Seriously, Ma. She's my Ma. She's the one who raises me up, until now. She's the one who gave birth. She's my best friend. And the reason for me to stay strong. I'll tell her that I love her, and I'll apologize for everything that I've done. And to thank her, for every single thing. And I want her to be beside my Pa. So that I can talk to my Pa without making another phone call. And I'll tell him the same thing. My parents are my hero. I love them, no matter what. 


4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

Well, most probably, no. I dislike to tell things that should be confidential. I'll tell my family la for sure. I'll apologize to everyone for everything that I've done, pay my debts and do good things, that make me happy, for one month. I'll beribadah to Allah, ask for His forgiveness for every sin. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes. Too many mistakes. And as a servant, I have to return to the Creator, one day. And yes, I'll be afraid and now, I'm afraid T_T

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

Trust. I've experienced having love without trust. And I've experienced having trust without love. Love without trust, well, you can lose the love that you have. And yea, memang la kalau dah ada love tu, ada la trust. But kalau trust tu dah hilang, love tu boleh stay? Kalau trust, boleh je ada love, one day. Hah. Ceh. Hahahaha. But yea, I prefer trust. Tak semua orang adore/sayang kita. But kalau dah ada trust, senang je kerja, or apa apa. 

Another 20? Later. 

Dah.

I give up.

You

My tweets, almost all of them are about you. About missing you. 

My posts on Facebook, most of them are for you. 

Songs in my playlist, some of them remind me of you.

My thoughts, they are all about you. 

I pray for you, for me, for us.

I wish I have the courage to tell you everything, then, leave. I wish. Sigh

Why?

I want to go to Penang because...

I'm jealous of the people who get to see you and be with you everyday.

Satu hari je pun boleh la. 

Hope you're doing fine there. Please take care. Please be fine. And balik la, cepat. I wanna talk to you. 

Kbye, malu, bye

Oh.

I'm hurt, terribly hurt.

And I don't know why.

This is awkward

I miss Akmal. 

O Allah, please take care of him, for me. Thank you Allah. 

Pau.

Hi. Any tips to get slimmer cheeks? Slimmer? Smaller? Ah whatever. Any tips? I NEED IT, seriously T_T

Hey you,

I think its time. I need to move on. I need to forget you. I need to accept that you won't be mine, ever. I know this sounds weird, but yeah, that's just it. Thanks for every sweet thing that you've done. And please, just go. I'm fine when thinking that you're just like other strangers that I may not know and I don't want to know. I'm fine, and I'll be fine. I believe, everything happens for reasons. And I deserve someone better. Thank you, you.

Hi, you.

4th February, 2009.

I texted you, saying that I gave up waiting for you and all. A text to apologize, to thank you, to confess. I had been waiting for you for, entahla, tak ingat. But one thing for sure, it was a long duration, quite long. I never gave up to text you, even though there was no reply, from you. Not a single Hi or what. But that day, I got so tired. And yes, a text, sent to you, to tell you that I gave up.

Today, 8th February 2012.

Last four days, 4th February 2012.

3 years. Eh no, 3 years plus, and yes, I'm still loving the same guy. I still have the same feeling I used to have for the same guy. I shouldn't. But, thats just it. It can't be forced, so what can I do? I tried to get rid of the feeling, but it is still there, so what can I do? I tried many times, and I failed.

Sikit ke, banyak ke, rasa tu still ada. Tak nak la.

Tak nak. Just tak nak.

Because I know, he doesn't feel the same as I do. He doesn't.

I know I can move on, but I just don't know when. I need to move on. I need to stop hoping since it won't be happening, at all. I need to realize that and get back on track. I just need to stop hoping and expecting. I just need to.

Good night people. Take care. And this is, random. I guess.

Semester 1

So, semester 1 has came to its end (Y) 

Behaviour Sciences punya block pun dah habis. Hihi. Exam pun dah habis hihi. Exam pun macam okay tapi tak yakin hihi. Okay boleh stop hihi hihi dah kut -___-

So, there'll be one week break and after Thaipussam, I'll be back to Cyberjaya, to start studying again and yes, new block which is Microbiology and Immunology. My friends and I will be learning about those microbes, those viruses, bacteria and all, plus the immunology, haish. Means, there will be more memorizing and understanding la lepas ni. But its okay. Everything will be fine if I have the strength, insyaAllah.

Tapi cuti tak best pun, kut. No Astro, no internet. Haih nak buat apa doooo cuti ni nak buat apa doooooooo aaaaarghh stress nya alaaaaa nak tengok Astro alaaaaaahai sadisnyaaaa T_T

Okay tu je. Sebenarnya ada post yang menyentuh perasaan sendiri. Tapi tengah tahan the desire nak post tu, nak post after 4 February nanti. Hmm. So take care adios!

22nd January 2012

Lets read a story. A short story.


22nd January. It was his 20th birthday. Nothing special that had been done on that day, I guess. There was just a watch, bought from Padini Authentics, and a card, and they were put in a black paper bag. Yes. Only those. I went to Jusco Cheras Selatan, just to buy those things, with Syuvynn as an accompany. After having Prosperity for brunch, I searched for a perfect gift that I should give this year. And yea, I bought a watch. It wasn't from Rolex, Bell & Ross or whatever, and it was not that expensive, but I liked it and I would like to see he wearing that watch that I bought. Yes. 


Wong Solo, Bangi. We went there for lunch. His lunch. No cake, nor candies, nor balloons. Only Ayam Penyet, Teh O' Ais, Air Kelapa Muda and Sirap Limau. 


Allah is great. Allah is amazing. He showed me the truth, that I'd never thought before. Well, I had thought about it, but only for several times. And I refused to believe or to think about it so much. 


And the truth was revealed. A guy, that you used to love and still loving, well, went to a club one night and danced with someone that you would describe as a bitch. And just think, how would you handle that kind of situation? On his birthday, and the truth was revealed, and you were upset, how would you handle it? Would you shout at him, cry, or just keep quiet?


I cried. I cried so hard. 


He begged. I didn't know what to say. He apologized. And I accepted his apology, and him.


Haih. What was that? Stupid or something that was just ugh.


I have no idea. Haih. Allah, please help me in making decisions. And please help him, in transforming him to a better person. Please make me strong, stronger than ever. Amin.


Thats all I've got to say. Good night. Sleep well. Take care. And my apologies, to all.

So, its January and MBBS

Last post, yang so last year tu (well, daa) tajuknya 'So Its December' so sekarang January. Nanti February, 'So its February' pula. Nanti March pastu April dan seterusnya. No, saya bukan nak ajar the 12 months in a year, no no. Saya nak cakap jeeeee, kasi panjang post *cute face*

Saya tahu la, belog saya ni, macam ________. Satu haram jadah tak post kan since last post. Pastu Husna selalu tanya bila nak update belog. Pastu dia selalu tweet macam ni, 'siapa yang ada blog tu, sila pergi update sekarang'. Mestila saya terasa, terasa bertanggungjawab nak buka belog lalu... zzz.  I'm such a _______. 

Well, actually, the thing is, hmm, how do I start this, hmm, how la how how.

K. The thing is... 

Takde benda pun sebenarnya!

Huahuahua lawak lawak lawak. Lawak tak lawak tak? Tak lawak pun kan sebenarnya. Saya tahu. Saya pun bukannya tengah gelak sekarang. Sebenarnya, saya tengah macam ni :|

Nak tahu taaaaaaak... (kalau taknak tahu, kena juga tahu sebab saya nak bagitahu ni. Hahaha padan muka kena tahu :p )

Okay okay, nak tahu taaaaaaaakk... sekarang dah habis block Pathology. Next block, which mean this Monday, block Behavioral Science pula. Behavioral Science, saya dan classmates akan belajar pasal Psychology, basically. Pasal motivation, stress and how to cope with it, benda macam tu la. Kamal mesti suka saya belajar benda ni, boleh cerita kat dia, hehehe :p So, I'll be learning about this for 3 weeks. Wajib dapat A kalau nak dapat 3.50. Tak harap pun masuk dalam Dean List, nanti Dean kenal ai, malu lah ai :3 Ai ni dah lah memang pemalu, tak boleh orang pandang, nanti ai sorok belakang ketiak Husna. Nasib baik ada Husna, tempat ai menutup muka malu (': Tapi kalau masuk, Alhamdulillah. Hopefully bolehla masuk, AMIIIIIIIIIIN

So first of all, let me tell you how this block system works. 

Satu sem, ada 5 block. Satu block, satu subject. For instance, Anatomy block, Physiology block and etc. Saya dah lepas 4 block dah la, to make long story short. Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry, Pathology, dah lepas dah (Y) Sekarang tinggal Behavioral Science and lepas ni, habislah satu sem. Baru habis satu sem tau. Ada lagi sembilan! SEMBILAN.

Tiba tiba rasa nak cerita belajar apa dalam semua block tu :3 Mintak izin!

Anatomy, hmm, belajar pasal badan la, generally. Pasal cell. Pasal kulit, tulang, all those things. Kitorang belajar pasal structures dalam badan. Lepas tu pasal baby dalam perut, macam mana boleh jadi baby, and about the mother sikit sikit.

Physiology, pasal, hmm, normal things that occur in our body. Macam mana tangan boleh bergerak, macam mana badan boleh control kalau ada apa apa. Semua pasal normal things, means orang sihat punya badan la, ahaaa.

Biochemistry. Hmm. Biasa la, senior kata subject ni paling susah. Killer subject. Sebab banyak mechanism. Tapi tah, best tau sebenarnya. Boleh tahu makanan kita tu jadi apa nanti (energy). Macam mana boleh ada fats, pastu pasal vitamin, deficiency of nutritions, pasal DNA semua. Best tau. Rasa macam wow! Pastu tiba tiba rasa nak jaga pemakanan sebab dah tahu kalau makan semua benda jadi apa -____-

Pathology belajar pasal the abnormalities. Opposite dengan Physiology. Belajar pasal penyakit, cancer, TB, semua benda tu la. Freaky la sikit. Kalau orang yang cepat geli geli, dah boleh pengsan lah kut tiba tiba dalam class, paling kurang pun, muntah. Serious ni >:| Pastu dah belajar Pathology, hmm, tah la, saya jadi paranoid. Saya takut kawan saya yang smokers (active or passive) kena apa apa yang menakutkan. Saya takut Papa Mama kena apa apa. And I guess thats why I always tell stories to them, about Pathology. Kat Papa, saya cerita kalau gula and BP naik apa jadi. Kat Kamal, saya cerita macam mana smoking tu boleh rosakkan badan. Everything, almost everything.

So, basically, macam tu lah. Memang, medicine memang one of the courses yang paling susah atas muka bumi. Memang, tak tipu ni. Siapa nak belajar ni, memang kena kuat, kena rajin, kena pandai manage time, bila nak main main, bila nak belajar. One thing for sure, hari hari kena belajar, macam yang lain la. Tapi tah la, kena rajin baca. Baca pun tak boleh as fast as the light. Dia kena slow slow, word by word, baru faham. Tapi kalau orang yang baca laju macam Flash tu, untung lah. But, for me, alahai, satu chapter, nak habis kan, boleh la dalam 3-4 jam. Campur dengan masa tergedik gedik nak tweet nya, makan minum nya, stare kat dinding, berak lagi, etc. Haaaa. Belajar medicine, memang kena banyak sabar. Memang menguji kesabaran saya yang tak berapa sabar orangnya. Tapi, kenalah bersabar and have faith. Memang wajib! Tu belum masuk phase housemanship lagi. Dengan working hour nya, seniors nya, memang kena sabar. Tapi, macam Fatin Liyana cakap la, 

"Next time, please la never mess with medical students because we are emotionless and immortal." - Fatin Liyana

Ha betul! Dia jadi macam ignorance or kuat sangat sampai kalau kena apa apa pun kan, sakit hati dia kejap je, kejap sangat! Sebab banyak benda lagi nak fikir dari fikir benda remeh. Serious, tak tipu. Lagipun saya dengar lagu You Only Live Once dan 11th Dimension hari hari kut (Y)

K sambung. Kalau sekarang, kena baca banyak satu hal. Ada SCTL lagi. Masa memang banyak sebab class habis awal. 12:30 dah habis dah. Tapi tah, masa makan, masa tidur, pastu masa makan tu lepak lama lama, buat kedai tu macam parents punya pula tu. Pastu masa online, kita rasa 30 minit je, tengok tengok 2 jam rupanya :O K takyah muka terkejut pun takpe, biasa lah tu. Memang banyak buang masa la -____- Sebab tu la kena pandai manage masa. And sacrifice. 

"Ya Allah, kau tabahkan la hatiku, kentalkan jiwaku, bukalah pintu kesabaran bagiku. Amin"

So, itu saja for this time. Panjang lah pula tiba tiba post ni -____- Biarlah, bila je lagi nak post panjang panjang. Selalunya busy, busy doing nothing. Eh busy lah tu :p Tapi memang busy sebenarnya, taktahu la buat apa sampai boleh claim busy ni -____-

Thats all for now, take care fellas!

So, its December

Its December already ah? Oh its 3rd December, okaaaaaaaay... So, harini birthday akak Husna kita, ehee, ala akak Husna, Husna Jamaliah tuuueww. Kak Long Kluang tuuueww. Saya tak bagi dia hadiah apa apa, belanja tengok Breaking Dawn sahaja :3 Dah la banyak kissing part, slow lagi. Hmm. Tapi best. Boleh la. K boleh diam dah pasal Breaking Dawn.

Ha ni la akak Husna kita. Pemilik JNE, well it is called Jenee. Sebenarnya nak Jenab haha tapi takde B kat belakang, so yeah, Jenee, yeah. Happy birthday Husna xoxo k byeeee

And sekarang dah masuk tahun baru kan? Sekarang bulan Muharram kan? (': Selamat selamat. Selamat sejahtera! Dan seperti biasa, tahun baru, azam pun baru. Mari kita lihat, apa azam saya untuk tahun baru ini! Okay jom :3

1. Baca Quran at least 3 kali seminggu. Hmm. Ye la. Sebab macam selalu fikir takde masa. Tapi sebenarnya ada. Just tak pandai je guna masa, pastu baca Quran sekali seminggu je, hmmph, hampa.

2. Kukuhkan solat. Means, um, taknak tinggal dah. Lagi lagi Subuh. Because, well, you know, kalau weekends, memang payah nak bangun T_T Pastu one whole day tu rasa macam miserable je, sebab tak solat Subuh la. Kalau duduk dengan parents, senang la sikit, diorang kejut :B Plus, taknak tidur dah lepas solat Subuh, baik belajar je wuwu

3. Lose some weight. K. I feel berisi. Thats why. Dah jangan bising. 

So, its Biochemistry and next Friday, my friends and I going to sit for final exam for Biochemistry block. Hmm, sangat lah cuak kan. Tipu la tak cuak kan. Dah la susah. Pastu dah tahu susah tapi asyik main main je. Asyik buang masa je. Eeeh. Tak faham la kan dengan diri sendiri ni kan grr T_T Lagi lagi this week belajar pasal DNA pfft. Pastu next week cancer, which is wow okay yeah but nanti exam cano laaaaa -.-

But, I'll never stop trying to achieve something, and I'll never stop praying. InsyaAllah (':

Before I end this, like really end this, let me show you these three videos that hmm, well,  they do not keep me awake that fully awake punya style, but these videos do help me, most of the times, ehee.

So, first,



Then,




And this,

So, thats all for today. Gonna continue studying DNA and going to have lunch with family before they off to Jakarta for holiday. Cis. Jealous sikit but its okay. So bye fellas. Take care. 

Itew cuti lew

Hi. Kite kan, kita tengah cuti tau. Kite taktahu nak buat apa. Kite bosan sangat! Bosan tau!

K hi. So, I'm on one week holiday now. I have nothing to do other than tidur, makan macam monster, tengok TV, tidur lagi, dan tengok TV, makan, dan sebagainya. Secara jujurnya, buku tak bawak keluar from bag pun. Ada la sikit. Notes enzyme tu baca la sikit :3
Yea, the current block is Biochemistry, which is, ugh I dont know, a silent killer? Well, it isnt supposed to be a killer, but dia punya susah tu, pergh! Susah gila tau, sedih mak, tercabar Kak Long Cheras (me) ni tau! And compared to Anatomy and Physiology blocks, they both are umm, better, I guess. But Biochemistry, haih ): Exam? Heh, dont say a word about exam. Okay, I will -.- Exam susah gila and this is serious! Memang susah gila since I focused more on all metabolisms, but things like enzymes, nutrition, I just read through. Haih. And sekarang, menyesal )': So I need to study harder la next time.
And oh, I had fun with Husna, Thaqifah, Nadiah and Wan after the exam :'D We ate sushi, played bowling, snapped some photos, ate at William's apa tah and the dishes were delicious!

And now, I'm craving for Sushi King and Burger King ):

So... K... Bye... You know, I'm a kind of person who, well, you know, I have ideas but they suddenly go away T_T

Bye bye and take care folks!

And congrats Harimau Muda for winning the match for the SEA games! :D Get enough rest and play well next time, lebiyuuu hioooooookk :3

Short update.

Hi. I know, it has been a month, eh more than a month kut since my last update. I know. Ive been very busy I guess. I need to suit myself with new situation, new life, new um new, umm, new things? Tengok la, balik rumah pun jarang tau )': After exam je baru balik, mana ada balik every weekend macam dulu dah, tau. Sedih tau! Sedih! Tahu tak! K. Tahu. Bagus.

But well, studying Medicine is not easy. True. So I should sacrifice my sleeping time, my TV time, my going-back-home-time and all. But I never sacrificed my time on the interenet, pfft -____- I need to concentrate more on studying. Tapi ahaaaa, ada je tau yang macam ahaaaa, yang taktahu la, distraction kut alahai :/ Tak suka au. For instance, umm, k tak payah examples. No no no.

K tu je. Ni short update je. I dont really have the idea to write. I got one. But later, perhaps. Should go now. Bye. Take care people.

CUCMS Anthem. K, no.

"I got your picture, I'm coming with you, dear Maria, count me in. This is a story of the..."

Ces. Meremang bulu roma dengar lagu ni. Ringtone phone Azim yang lama, ces ces ces. Baik dengar lagu All Of Your Love by Hellogoodbye. Best. Cubalah dengar.

"All of your love, is all that I needed. Girl, are you going out, I'm freaking out..."

K. Ni bukan post pasal lagu. Post pasal apa, entah, taktahu, hikhik.

K. Serious. Ni post pasal CUCMS dan ai. Ai bukan Ai Ling or apa lagi. Bukan bukan. Ai = saya = aku = gua. Faham? K, bagus. And naaah, ni bukan cerita pasal CUCMS dan akreditasi. Akreditasi dan CUCMS punya hubungan yang dulu keruh, kini okay, tak keruh dah, okay lah okay, tak keruh. Hubungan mereka baik. Makan, eh maka, semua orang dalam keadaan baik. Semua orang perlu fokus dalam study saja. Termasuk lah, ai. Ye. Ai. Saya la.

5th September 2011. Saya mendaftarkan diri di CUCMS, dalam bidang yang digeruni saya, hahaha, iaitu MBBS atau nama panjang Bachelor of Medicine and Bachelor of Surgery. Kalau saya dapat degree dan cemerlang dari segi affective domain nya, layak lah saya jadi doctor yang disegani sendiri, kalau orang lain taknak segan. Dan menjadi kebanggaan Mama Papa (': dan juga bakal suami, sesiapa bakal suami la (':
Hmmph! Memang digeruni. Betul lah apa yang orang kata, 'Medic ni tak senang'. Memang betul. Saya baru rasakannya. Ni baru minggu kedua ni, minggu kedua tau. Tapi fizikal dan mental dah diuji dan sedang diuji. Emosi setakat ni belum lagi sebab housemates saya best ♥ Husna, Thaqifah, Nadiah, Priyaa, Vino dan Crystal. Walaupun katil patah, takpe, saya seronok, malam-malam saya tidur dengan Husna, Thaqifah, Nadiah, ehee. Taktahu la mereka seronok ke tak. Tapi seronok lah kut, hahaha. Kadang-kadang Inaz datang bagi gelak :D Plus ada Husna Khalil, Izuddin, Syahiran dan lain lain.

Asyik tersimpang/terpesong je cerita saya ni, dang. What is the actual motive of posting this?! Zzz.
K. Saya dah dua minggu sini. Belajar dah berapa hari juga la. Chapter, hmmph, dah 5 dah chapter. In 3 days. Hebat. Memang kena prepare physically and mentally. Prepare everything. Baju untuk pakai esok, bag sekolah bag ke kelas, pens dan paling penting, some knowledge or overview about the chapter that will be learned. Nanti masuk class nganga je kalau taktahu apa apa. Kalau dah study before masuk class, senang faham tau. Nanti nak revise for examinations or to be used in daily life, especially those who want to be a doctor la, pun senang. Ye adik adik? Bagus bagus.

Mama Papa risau saya kat sini. Takut la kalau saya main-main. Ye la, siapa tak takut, saya pun takut -.- Kalau duit banyak, lagi takut! Asyik spend je. I'm a big spender, fyi. Pastu cabaran terbesar, rumah kat Cyberjaya ni ada WIFI! HOYEAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH! SUKA NYA LA GILA SUKA NI SERIOUS LA DO SUKA! :D Sebab tu la boleh post blog tiba tiba ni (Y) So bertambah lah cabaran dan tanggunjawab towards diri sendiri which is, kawal nafsu online. Dah lah nafsu shopping asyik menggeledak, eh membuak. Nafsu makan, hmm, apatah lagi. Dahla study medicine ni susah. Kena kuat. Stronger than walls that are made of bricks. Stronger than ever. Stronger than Britney Spears. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually, semua kena tough. Kena ada faith, hope. And I have to believe. And pray. And baca Quran. And everything nice. Kena ada semuanya. Patience. And paling penting, spirit, faith, strength and I have to put more effort, 101% effort and concentration.

K dah lah tu. Boleh pergi mandi dah kut sekarang ni. Pastu study. Diri sendiri kata medicine ni susah and diri sendiri yang nak jadi doctor, belajar medicine. So sendiri mau ingat la! Yezza. K bye bye TTYL take care semua byeeeee. Kirim salam laki laki handsome. Eh tak boleh, nanti Azim bising, hmm. Saya pun tak faham, hahaha :P

"We could have it all, rolling in the deep, you have my heart and soul in your hand, but you play it with the beat"

Dah bye

Diari Ramadhan Nadya, konon #pfft

Hi. Ye saya tahu, sekarang ni raya, bulan Syawal, no longer Ramadhan. Saya tahu tu, saya tahu. Saya sambut raya jugak what (Y) Tapi hmm, yelah, I'm about to explain why there is no Diari Ramadhan Nadya, until now, ngehehehhehasdfghjkl.

Jumaat, petang.
- Hujan yang lebat di Bandar Tun Hussein Onn. Tiba tiba. Tak pernah pernah cenggitu. Tiba tiba macam tu. Kilat sabung-menyabung. Berdentam-dentum bunyi mercun, eh bunyi guruh. Kilat macam nak zoom! mencucuk masuk ke dalam rumah melalui tingkap. Memang kuat dan menakutkan. Campur muka saya yang busuk sebab belum mandi, menakutkan bukan?

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Tiba tiba, saya terdengar satu letupan yang hmm tak kuat pun, tapi berjaya mengejutkan mama dan saya. Saya juga ternampak satu spark di kawasan wayar wayar telefon, tv, modem dan sebagainya. Saya yang sedang asyik bermain Tetris di iPad terus melompat dah menuju ke arah mama yang sedang melipat kain, dan saya terus melipat kain sambil beristighfar dan cakap 'takut gila ma'. Muka cuak masa tu.

Jumaat, malam pulak.
- Hujan dah berhenti, lama dah. Saya konon nak download notes untuk mbbs. Tiba tiba takleh connect to internet. CONFIRM MODEM YANG MELETUP KECIL TU. Hmm. Hampa. Saya pun cabut plug modem. Dan juga laptop, sebab takut.


Dan itulah Diari Ramadhan saya. Sekian, terima kasih. Diari Syawal selama 3, 4 atau 5 hari akan di post kalau sempat. Yela, saya nak masuk study MBBS dah nantu 5th September ni hehehe :B

Okay tuje, take care, bye bye. Dan SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR BATIN, k bye.

Post #1 Ogos

Harini 10th August. Dah nak masuk 11th dah pun. Setengah jam lagi.








Dan satu post bulan Ogos or bulan puasa pun takde!







I feel... lame. Semua orang update. Me? Hahaha. Gonna update soon. I need ideas. I have some. But it ends, but not at the end. Pfft. Diari Ramadhan Nadya #punboleh Okay gonna update soon okay okay zzz